two videos I posted recently. first one is an overview of the methods I’m thinking about to recover my identity/spark. the second is more about goals and people, and how finding your people might be better than focusing on goals.
so my embarrassing (to who?) journey as a vlogger continues. I put a lot of thought into the ideas. then they come out like BLAH and I refuse to put effort into the video because don’t want to be one of those post vloggers trying to looksmax their life. At the same time though I can’t speak nearly as well as I’d need to to make boring talking head work. but I feel like continuing with it, to get better and increase my confidence if nothing else.
I kind of feel like a weird abstract joke version of myself. my head is so inside out after 20+ years of struggling and second guessing, it’s cringey to watch myself but also hilarious.